“For the longest I didn’t want to share this. I was afraid, ashamed and horrified about myself but the only thing that will set me free is the truth.”
Those pictures up there are of me.
From 2012 -> 2015 -> 2017 (In August)
I wanna share the story of how I went from skinny to fit to fat with you.
2 years ago (in 2015) I was fit. I had gained muscle from training hard and went from a skinny 140 pound kid to a strong 150 pounds in 2 years.
I was making regular youtube videos, sharing my workouts and all the things I was learning with you guys and that is how you found me.
Life was great back then. I had lots of time to train, create and learn but I wasn’t making a lot of money so I had to find a job.
I quickly got a job and that led into having 2 jobs. This was great and now I had a lot more cash that I could invest into my food, my education and gym memberships.
I joined a powerlifting gym at this point and my strength gains were increasing too fast.
I went from deadlifting 225 to hitting a one rep max of 405 in less than 3 months.
I felt on top of the world. I was making a lot of money and also getting stronger.
During this time some of my friends were really big into craft beer. I had never been into beer before but little by little after hanging out with them I started to really enjoy beer (specially stout and sour beers)
After a few months of hanging out with them I became obsessed with beer. Not because I liked to get drunk or feel buzzed but because there was so many styles of beer out there and I simply wanted to try them all. It was a new art form that I was excited to discover.
Eventually I got to the point where I was going out 3-4 times a week to drink and have fun at festivals and breweries. I had a lot of fun but this new passion destroyed my body.
I was working a lot and after work it was either go to the gym and train or go out with friends and drink. At first it was an easy choice:
I’ll just do it all – Work, go workout and then go out. And that worked out great for the first year.
But eventually the more I went out the less I started to train simply because I felt like S#!t. I was eating junk food all the time, sleeping super late (2:30AM-3AM) and was constantly in a state of drunkness.
Fast forwarding to 2016 I had put on over 10 pounds of fat and had lost a lot of my muscle. I was depressed and felt ashamed.
I once was known for being an energetic guy that all I wanted to do was workout and hang from trees. And now I was a skinny fat guy that was overworked and his definition of fun was going to get a few cold ones with the boys.
I had hit rock bottom.
At the beginning of the year I had made the resolution of training again to get stronger.
During January I moved out with my best friend. We had a cool apartment and I started meal prepping again. I brought my gymnastic rings and kettlebell to train with me.
“I didn’t have a place to hand the rings in the house so I wrapped them around the stairs next to the elevator”
Since I had to pay rent I stopped going out regularly. I was cooking, going to work and when I came back home I was either working out or doing some computer work.
My life was slowly getting back some structure.
Our lease ended in April and I moved back with my parents.
During this time I got lazy again; since I didn’t have to pay rent anymore I could go out and spend money again so I started going to eat a lot of restaurants and trying out crazy fat food like bacon wrapped burritos and ice cream chicken sandwiches.
It was fun discovering fun new foods but again this was wrecking my health and energy levels.
After eating all kinds of Instagram worthy foods I started to feel dissatisfied. The fun that I once had trying new foods got boring and everything tasted the same: Just cool looking grease balls.
After the summer I found some pictures of my old self when I was fit and also some older ones when I was skin and bones. I saw that I had made a huge transformation and started to self reflect on my life.
What was I doing with my life?
I was just consuming and not really contributing much to this world. I taught back when I was making YouTube videos on the regular and that is when I felt the most ALIVE. That is when I was motivating people to take action and change their bodies.
Here I was a once strong guy that had everything going for him and now I am looking in the mirror and my abs are covered by an abundance of constant beer, bacon and donuts.
I felt disgusted into what I had transformed into.
Finally on August 8 I woke up dissatisfied and joined a gym. It had just opened a month ago and the place had all kinds of monkey bars to hang from.
I nervously go there to sign up and start going there almost everyday.
Whitin the first week of training there I meet some guys doing crazy calisthenics movements: 360 Muscle Ups, Levers and Handstands on rings.
I was able to do a muscle up before but these guys were frestyling on the bars and basically flying.
After that training session I felt alive. I wanted to get stronger and I knew that if I wanted to do crazy skills like these guys then I needed to start training with them.
For the past 2 months I’ve been training to get my muscle up and I am able to do them again. But after gaining weight and getting weaker this movement is a lot harder.
I’ve decided to re-start my calisthenics journey and here we are now. I am writing emails to help you guys and making regular YouTube content again.
I feel excited to train and share. I am still not at the level I want to be but I am excited to train everyday.
I will be sending regular emails to help you get stronger based on everything I know and learn.
It’s been a long email and I just wanna say thank you for being subscriber. Thank you for being here for me and reading my story. It was tough to share all this personal information but the truth is what will set us both free.
If you are in a similar situation or needed a kick in the ass to go train then I hope that my story inspires you into action.
I am here for you so feel free to drop a comment and ask m anything.
Can’t wait to see how much progress we make together.
Attack Life and Get Stronger!
– Luis Carrillo